I know it has been a long time since I have updated this blog. I had my mind set that I was going to do all that I could to make sure that I updated at least once a week, but that didn't work out.
Once school started and I was back to working three jobs, I knew my time was going to be spread thin, but I thought I would still have the time to meditate, read Tarot, and develop. Well, I got a fourth job and while it is only two days a week, that time that I thought I could commit to my psychic development went right out the window.
I took another trip to visit Aunt L in Virginia this weekend and had another amazing time. She knew that I haven't had the time to really develop and haven't read in the last two months. As soon as I walked in her door she had me get out my deck to read her. I knew it was coming, but I didn't know I was only going to be in her house for thirty seconds before they were in my hand.
I felt rusty. It took me a while to get the flow going. Once it did, though, I understood what the cards were saying and effectively relayed their message. Phew!
That night, we went to her office and she had me read her again. This time I wasn't as nervous and felt confident that I would do an okay job. It's amazing to me how quickly time flies by when I'm doing my thing. We got there around 8:00 PM and I read her for about 50 minutes. It really only feels like I read her for 15. Afterwards, she gave me a mediumship reading and it was completely amazing! I bawled like a little baby when a certain loved one came through. It was completely amazing and I am still completely astonished.
On Saturday, her friend (another psychic) had a Halloween party with special guests and a mediumship demonstration by her. I was very impressed by everything that was going on and awed by the way that she reads. I had never participated in such a party and was amazed by the whole thing.
It's really after the party, though, were things really became interesting for me. After she gave her mediumship demonstration and the party came to a close, guests were invited to eat some snacks before they went home. Aunt L instructed me (numerous times I may add) to bring my Tarot deck because there was a great chance that I would be able to read some of the guests. I was not confident in this possibility and really tried to distance myself from that becoming a reality. Well, it became reality.
I was able to read four women and had a great time doing it. All of the reads were fantastic, I made one get emotional and another downright cry. I was so happy that everything went so well and was flabbergasted in my own ability.
I told myself before starting this blog that one of my goals was to use this as a type of psychic development journal that all can see. I need to make sure that when I doubt myself or my developing abilities that I come back here and read my own words. Instead of doubting, I need to remember that intuitively, I was able to know that something significant happened to a woman in December, that another woman had a son that just got married and she didn't care for his wife, that a woman was having a hard time moving on in life because she was too focused on the loss of her loved one, and that another woman wants to move cross-country and shouldn't settle for a job just to make that happen. These are all things that I need to remember.
I really need to say "screw you" to the self doubt and insecurities. I'll try to make that happen.
Until Next Time.
